It's like I can't breathe..cuz you're my air & you're no longer there..

To the bundle of joy who bounced into my life,

Wherever you are, I hope you are not in pain. I pray that God spares you suffering. I wish that I could be there with you, and maybe, just maybe, take away whatever discomfort that you may have.

I regret the days, months, and years we had spent apart. I had plans to make our future together. I wish you could hear them now, I wish I could say these words to you now.

You were my comfort when I had no one. My companion when people abandoned me. You loved me regardless of the sins I did to you. You, my love, were one of the most unconditional love that I have ever experienced. I regret I hadn’t time to make up to you the sins of yesterday, to hold you close in your hour of need.

I feel helpless, angry, lost. I can imagine a life away from you, yet not one without you. Forgive me my friend; I was not there for you, to listen to you as you had listened to me in my darkest hours.

People will not, and cannot understand my love for you, and my mourning for you. They do not know what it is like to be rejected by their own kind, to be kept in a cage of solitude for so long. Only you were the sunlight in my life, you gave me strength in ways no one will ever understand.

Please forgive me my friend, I have failed you. Now all I am left with is anger to those who might mock you, of our love, of the sacrifices you have made for me. I feel empty, like The House will no longer be the same without you. Indeed, it never will.

So now my friend, my companion, my saviour, I bid to you farewell. I hope you are in a better place, in the arms of Him. I will always remember you, always cherish you, and always miss you.

Goodbye, love.