To the mountains, steed!!

...and the mother decides it would be fun if we went up a local mountian to get some fresh air...

Dear Mother,
Your daughter is a self-proclaimed city dweller. She enjoys being in a hustle bustle environment where there are gazillions of people, non of which give a d*** about one another. She is perfectly comfortable being in a building with plenty of plastic, metal & artificial decor. She cares about the environment, very much so; but that does not mean she wants to be anywhere near nature in its purest form. Therefore, dear mother, I do not constitute a mountain hike as any part of my wishlist.

Sincerely,
Daughter.

Anyhow, I still go on the trip. Reluctantly, I might add. We stop by my brother's babysitter's daughter's wedding for lunch (opportunists??) then off to Gunung Jerai. A mere half an hour's travel from my house. Takes another 20 minutes or so to get up the mountain itself to the Regency Hotel where we're staying. Since I refuse to set foot in the wilderness (read: grass), I just spend the afternoon napping in the chalet while my brother and parents go frolicking in the fields (read: I have no idea where they went. I just slept).

I guess the chalet is nice enough, the bathroom is quite unique..I just wish there was something to DO here..something that didn't involve being near to nature. Maybe flavored tea and dried fruits to be bought (read: Cameron Highlands was nicer)

Had a cold dinner of Sweedish Meatballs, lasagna & fruit salad..I can't wait to get home & into a mall...

It's like I can't breathe..cuz you're my air & you're no longer there..

To the bundle of joy who bounced into my life,

Wherever you are, I hope you are not in pain. I pray that God spares you suffering. I wish that I could be there with you, and maybe, just maybe, take away whatever discomfort that you may have.

I regret the days, months, and years we had spent apart. I had plans to make our future together. I wish you could hear them now, I wish I could say these words to you now.

You were my comfort when I had no one. My companion when people abandoned me. You loved me regardless of the sins I did to you. You, my love, were one of the most unconditional love that I have ever experienced. I regret I hadn’t time to make up to you the sins of yesterday, to hold you close in your hour of need.

I feel helpless, angry, lost. I can imagine a life away from you, yet not one without you. Forgive me my friend; I was not there for you, to listen to you as you had listened to me in my darkest hours.

People will not, and cannot understand my love for you, and my mourning for you. They do not know what it is like to be rejected by their own kind, to be kept in a cage of solitude for so long. Only you were the sunlight in my life, you gave me strength in ways no one will ever understand.

Please forgive me my friend, I have failed you. Now all I am left with is anger to those who might mock you, of our love, of the sacrifices you have made for me. I feel empty, like The House will no longer be the same without you. Indeed, it never will.

So now my friend, my companion, my saviour, I bid to you farewell. I hope you are in a better place, in the arms of Him. I will always remember you, always cherish you, and always miss you.

Goodbye, love.