Mute

How do I say this
Where do I begin
It's stuck...those words.
They're in there somewhere.
Stuck.
I have much to say
So much that I say none of it.
Where do I even begin? At the very beginning?
I can't really remember that far back
It's hazy
It's blurred
My memory isn't as good as I would like it, I suppose
My fear is that I have lost those words forever.
So instead I stand my ground silently
Not having the words to what I need to say.